Bonjour from Paris, where I’m in crazy mode today–doing interviews, photos, and signing books (If you’re in Paris, you have to come! The book signing is tonight at Le Bon Marché starting at 4:30pm!) and I was even on TV yesterday (you can see the show here, if you like).
Do I feel like a star?
Well, that’s a good question (it better be, since I’m asking myself, haha) because actually, yes, a little bit. Not in the sense that I’m starting to act like a diva or anything (at least I don’t think so)(what? is requesting champagne-flavored m&ms and a Ryan Goslingesque massage therapist in my green room asking too much?)(uh oh, a few people are going to take me seriously and I’ll be responsible for auto-spreading rumors about myself again) but more in the sense that I’m starting to feel a bit like I know the drill.
And even if I’m not really a star (I was on stage with Salma Hayek yesterday and let me tell you, she’s a superstar) I can see perfectly well how you slowly learn how to make media a job.
You know how to be “on” — what I mean by that is, you let the part of you that’s confident in herself come to the forefront, the part of you that’s a little over the top (on TV or in front of the camera, you can either be over the top or invisible) and the part of you that’s super in the moment. You’re in a state of intense focus about what’s happening (when usually you spend your life daydreaming).
For example, before my book signings, I often take ten minutes of calm without talking to anyone. Because I know afterward I’ll have to be “on” for two or three hours, and I want to be able to be focused on, and have a chat with, the amazing readers (some of which I’ll tell you about soon) who’ve come to see me.
Does it make me a diva if I sit in the corner and don’t talk too much? Maybe… Hmmmm.
You know exactly how to pose for a photo. You know how to be more or less relaxed in front of the camera. You learn how to answer interview questions without saying too many silly things. You know what clothes work for you and what doesn’t. You know how to position yourself in the right lighting.
Oh yeah, and you work with people who are more and more competent, who surround you with attention, like my publicist, Marie, who told me yesterday before I went on TV: “it’s better if you don’t eat while you’re on air” (it’s a show that takes place during a meal), people who do your makeup and make you look amazing (and give you advice that you end up using in real life) and who even know how to play with your imperfections (in the beginning, the slightest bulge was enough to make the stylist sigh with exasperation “how am I supposed to work with measurements like this!?”) and now you arrive and everything is exactly your size.
That’s why, when people have been telling me I look like I’m glowing lately and they ask me if it’s because of love, I say yes, of course, because I’m sure that’s part of it…
But I also know it’s especially because, more and more, I mean, especially since my book came out and I’m going around promoting it, I’m kind of living (not all the time, of course, but sometimes) the life of a mini-star.
I can totally see how it could go to your head. Oh la la! If you’ve got a weak ego, you could quickly get carried away by this strange game.
As for me, I’m trying to stay cool, not be annoying (but hey, I’m sure I am sometimes, it’s not easy to be 100% un-annoying, right?)(you know what? One day we should talk about what it means when people say that a woman is “annoying”)(often she’s just trying to do her job), do my best to stay professional, and take advantage of everything I’m learning every day.
And appreciate the incredible things I’ve been able to do, like have super talented photographers take my photo (like for this series in Madame Figaro, shot by Matthew Sprout, with an amazing article by Peggy Frey) and the incredible people I’ve been able to meet (The French Consul in New York, Salma Hayek yesterday, Donald Trump)(there was a joke in the last bracket, did you catch it?) and, in short, to accept that I’m growing and welcome these opportunities with a grateful heart.
And share as much as possible with you, like this sumptuous smokey eye I learned how to do yesterday. Very, very soon.
Today! 4:30 – 6pm | December 2, 2015
Le Bon Marché 24 Rue de Sèvres 75007 Paris
Translated by Andrea Perdue
Garance wears / Look 1: Jacket, Stella McCartney; Sweater, Nili Lotan / Look 2: Striped jumpsuit, TOME; Sweater, Nili Lotan / Look 3: Coat, MM6; Pant, Stella McCartney; Tunic, Nili Lotan; Dress, Rosetta Getty / Look 4: Coat, Carven; Jeans, AMO Denim; Heels, Chanel.